So here goes. My first picture of baby belly during week 15 :) I'm going to try and be more on top of it and take weekly pictures. And this was my first 'self portrait' and I look pretty funny! Haha!
It's fun to look back at pictures of when I was pregnant with Caleb. I feel like I am carrying a little differently, but I think I'm the only one who notices. Dave didn't really get what I meant. Maybe it's just because my belly popped out way faster this time and is already bigger than it was with Caleb. 3 weeks and 2 days till we find out if the baby is a boy or girl! And lastly,
I FINALLY started up with my case. I re-trained way back in October and finally started working with my kiddo on Monday, and he is adorable. But it's hard to get back in the swing of things after being out of the 'work' loop for a year and a half. And it's weird to transition from sweet darling child of mine, to another, sweet child, but who isn't mine. First day awkwardness is inevitable. And I am not a fan of starting new things. But I did it. And am continuing to pray for strength, wisdom, and patience, as I come to know this new child, and he comes to know me, and my hope is that he will slowly blossom in our months together. I feel like a rusty rock, found deep in the ocean and the layers of dust and grim need to be picked off quickly as I re-adjust to this new landscape before me. It's nice to have something outside of my wonderful days with Caleb and I'm pleased as punch that it's only a few hours a week and that Dave gets that special time alone with Caleb. So on Wednesday, I'll be almost as nervous as I was on Monday, but this time, I'll think of Caleb. I'll remember the way he took his coach's hand at his tumbling class today, and walked clear across the floor to the other side away from me, and I watched him try something he had never tried before, he smiled shyly at me, but didn't stop what he was doing, didn't pout or try and come back, he did the exercise, and then proudly smiled at the end. Proud of what he had done. I'll remember his sweet, tentative face, that took a chance, and took a step, on his own, without me near. And I'll say to myself, I can do it too...






