back in the land of the living

sort of. my mama instincts were right-again. back to the Dr we went after my poor baby cried all morning-and this baby does not cry i tell ya. turns out croup wasn't enough...double ear infection had to follow. caleb's only two days into this nasty cold that is making its way around town. literally. have i mentioned how much i hate it when my babies are sick? i hate it. a completely helpless and vulnerable and total lack of control feeling sweeps over my entire being and completely depletes every ounce of energy so that i have to go into survival mode and be okay for them-and trust in Him. to get through it. I am humbled. I never thought I'd be such a wimp when it comes to sickness, that is until these two little boys stole my heart. so now up is more medicine, but my happy baby boy is back!
on a final note. ever try getting thick, disgusting, bad smelling medicine down a 6 month old's mouth? no easy task. not at all. the face he makes while the gross stuff goes down? kinda priceless.
and from all this, once again I am so grateful for our very sweet, very good, and very patient and knowledgeable doctor as well as modern medicine!

what a monday morning looks like with two sick kiddos...

the sun isn't up yet. barely 5:30am and the sweet babe who has been up every two hours coughing and snotty is awake; and must have called over to big brother in the other room who also is also coughing and snotty. time to wake up! like-2 hrs earlier than normal. sweet hubby takes the babe, mama takes the toddler and back to sleep we try and go. the next two hours are restless sleep what with drip drip drips and coughs that hurt a mama's heart. blessed by a hubby who wakes up in the night to put babies back to sleep and comes home for lunch to help his weepy wife. so blessed.

the lion king and land before time are watched under a red blanket of warm bodies. a fussy baby who won't nurse or sleep, and a tired toddler. mama is trying to stay strong.

a skype session with auntie helps.

dad home for lunch, mama gets to take a nap.

back to the dr. we go this afternoon for my poor baby who is still coughing, cranky, and sniffly.

the good from all this?

caleb climbing up on the bed to be with lucas who started crying,  i started to run over to prevent any breakage...and then stopping. as i watched the two of them together. caleb helping his little brother. lucas smiling up at his real life hero. 

sick days aren't fun I tell ya. but from the bad, there always lies good.

love. sweet brotherly love. the unity of family. a marriage of grace and goodness.

love remains good.

here's hoping for good naps this afternoon.

another one bites the dust

just as one is starting to feel better, the other one gets sick. oh the joys. help came in the form of my mama this weekend and I am thankful for that! Hubby and I got almost an entire day to ourselves with nursing breaks for the little one. A long walk to downtown for lunch. An afternoon movie on a rainy Saturday. A margarita and enchillada dinner for two at a restraraunt in san juan. I'll hold on to that day for the rest of the week. We opted for church without the boys this am. Didn't want to spread the germ love. Lucas is still coughing up a storm (not croupy anymore, but full of mucus) Caleb is flushed and feverish. Not fun I tell ya. So lots of snuggles with two. And I'm so thankful for all the help this weekend. And praying for the week that I have enough love and comfort to give my sweet sickies this week. (I was pretty close to going down south with my mom this afternoon so I could be around helping hands this week in the day, but didn't want to leave the hubs...)

so here are my sickies. smiling through the sniffles...

up for the week will be vicks, vapor, and snuggles. lots and lots of tlc. maybe some chicken soup too.

thanks for all the help mom!

praying my sweet boys get better soon!

also just as i was having myself a little pity party about my sick babes, my dear friend sent me this video link. i've been a little extra weepy, i do admit, so the flood gates of tears kinda gathered as i watched this. it is a beautiful reminder for all mothers of the amazing gift our Heavenly Father has given us when he blesses us with these sweet little ones! And a great reminder that through Him we will find strength and courage, love and patience, to bestow on His precious little ones. Thanks Michelle!

http://www.lds.org/media-library/video/mormon-messages?lang=eng&id=2010-06-13-motherhood-an-eternal-partnership-with-god#2010-06-13-motherhood-an-eternal-partnership-with-god

sick baby

with the croup :( sad to say I can now recognize the cough in an instant after going through it with Caleb twice now. Which means we've been doing a lot of this. Cuddles, snuggles, vicks, blankets on the couch, short walks in the fresh air, nursing and holding, and praying for my sweetness to feel better soon.

our week

has had ups and downs. as usual. (I know it is only Wednesday, but it feels like it should be Friday!)
watching these two play together is an up :)

this happy little boy of mine, definitely an up.

the sniffles and cough that started yesterday with lucas, not so fun for mama. He's smiling through it all, but it causes me to worry just a little bit more than I'd like to say.

the way Caleb takes care of Lucas, an up. His tantrums, my challenge this week. My patience is being tested as well. Running is helping. I opened up my study for bible study tonight. The fruit of the spirit is peace for this week. God certainly knows what is on our hearts doesn't he?

After a long day with a toddler who needed to be playing outside, but alas the wind and cold would not allow, and a baby who had been coughing and sneezing and drippy all day; I took my littlest one into the rocking chair and we rocked, and we hummed, and we snuggled. Because a big part of my peace is holding, and breathing in these sweet baby breathes and these sweet baby scents, these days pass so quickly. My tantrumy toddler will soon be a teenager and I'll be longing for just one more hug. Praying for more peace this week. Peace with a sick baby and a cooped up toddler.

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One of my favorite blogs is coming out with a book! Here is the trailer :) I am so excited about it and can't wait to read it.

http://www.kellehampton.com/2012/02/bloom.html


My other 'new' favorite blog http://www.aholyexperience.com/ also has a book out http://onethousandgifts.com/the-book that I am currently reading and it is really enriching. I really enjoy these womens' writting style and outlook on life. I feel inspired everytime I read their blog. They put to words many times, the things I am feeling. I thought I would share the love!

Happy Valentines Day!

Sweet Sleep

Lucas, you love your hands. You stare at them, you suck on them, and they keep you busy all day long. Sometimes you go right to sleep just sucking on that pointer finger. Just like Auntie Laura when she was a baby. (I know they say it isn't good to suck on your fingers) but I like the fact that you are self-soothing yourself and can put yourself to sleep just sucking on that finger. You are such a sweet and easy going baby and we love you so very much!
Happy Monday :)
My favorite moment of the day. I was sitting in the rocking chair with Lucas helping him go to sleep and Caleb came over and started rubbing Lucas' back to help him fall asleep. These little moments shared between these brothers really make everything worth it!