Reflections

I've been having a tough time lately. I've been emotional and not always handling Caleb's temper tantrums in the calm way that I always thought I would. They have worn me down big time. So much so that when Dave gets home I go into 'shut down' mode and on the weekend I'm pretty much done. I feel like lately I've been tip-toeing around waiting for the next Caleb melt-down to occur. Although I know ways to handle them and I can understand most of the time why they are happening the 'in the moment' experience paints a different picture. I've just been having a hard time dealing with this new phase and I don't know why really. I just have never been able to handle the screaming and crying all that well. Anyways I chanced upon this blog and it really struck a chord with me and reminded me that 'this too shall pass' and brought tears to my eyes because I know that I will miss this stage one day. That the great moments outweigh all the hard moments. It helps to be reminded though...
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http://looslifamily.blogspot.com/2009/08/heaven-is-shopping-for-groceries-by.html
Someday, I'll be a mom of grown up kids who are off on their own, living their own lives - and when I see these moms with little kids, I'll think back nostalgically on this whole phase of my life. Aloneness in the grocery store will become a norm at that point. Fielding 5 comments and requests at once will be a thing of the past. And I'll look at those moms towing their kids along in a whole different way - I'll think about how lucky they are to have those cute little kids and I'll miss my own. I'll probably get the urge to stop those hassled moms and tell them to love this small window in their lives when they are so needed and so wanted by such lovely little people. I'll want to tell them that time goes by quickly and that the melt downs and crying really only lasts a few minutes at a time (even though it can seem like an eternity when you're in the middle of it). I bet I'll want to tell them that they'll even miss the hard stuff because without that, you don't appreciate the good as much.