falalalala....

rain. rainbows.christmas songs. fall leaves,red. warm cookies. homemade italian sauce. thanksgiving with family, just around the corner.

 I felt happy this morning. thinking back to childhood memories, christmas morning. thanksgiving suppers. time spent around family. I was able to enjoy our longish drive to morgan hill this morning because of rain and rainbows and christmas music that made my heart feel cheered.

I love Christmas music. I know...still early yet..but we have a long drive ahead of us this week. i just want to gear up and be excited for it. And I want to make the music last as long as possible!

My heart is only left heavy by the fact that we're mostly likely looking at a year of OT for C (after a conversation with his therapist this morning), but that's fine. It is more the fact that he'll still be needing to go 2x a week for a year...and then probably by a year's time be able to drop down to once a week. I guess in my mind I was hoping 2x a week for 6 months and then 1x a week for 6 more months. Well, we are just taking it one day at a time. That's all I can do really. The thought of keeping up this drive twice a week for a year is daunting, and honestly, it makes me want to cry. Two months has felt like a lifetime. The driving to and from, it is hard and it stinks. I really hate driving. I miss our long walks and the ability to walk or ride a bike everywhere. I hate that the boys are stuck in a car for so long each week. But...I have good thoughts too. It has only been two months and we've seen huge progress. Imagine after a year? Imagine. I can't. Two months is hardly any time at all and there have been big strides...imagine what's possible come next august. OT is making a difference and that is what matters. So, even as my heart feels a little heavy...I am letting in His whisper of Hope.

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library walk.