What if your blessings came through raindrops?

"Blessings"

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not,
This is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

I love this song. Each word. It is a beautiful song and it makes me cry when I hear it. My heart has been so saddened with the tragedy of 20 beautiful little children and the loss of the 7 adults as well. I ache when I think about what their parents are going through, what those on the scene Friday morning saw and heard. The rescuers, the firefighters, the police, the families, the siblings. It hurts so much. I can't bare it. I lift each of them up in prayer, several times a day. I squeeze the boys tighter and love them harder. I've sobbed for their pain. I've weeped for their ache. I lift each of them up to God. For he holds them and weeps with them. I think this song can put to words what  I feel better than anything else. We can't see through the storm, but God can. He is already there. There's a hurt so deep and a sadness so raw. I give it over to God to hold. I pray for all these families. The little ones. God is holding them near during this sorrowful time. Lord, may you comfort and hold near each one who is affected by this terrible tragedy. Draw them near to you. Life them up in your heavenly Grace. Amen.

A quick update on caleb. It feels small compared to this great hugeness we are facing as a nation right now. This great terrible sadness. But I wanted to share real quick that we had Caleb's IEP. It went well. He didn't qualify for services at the special education preschool. This is a blessing and a relief. He was high avg for language and cognitive and his motor skills were also in the avg range, low avg, but still avg. Not enough to qualify him. His private OT is making such a difference and we caught his sensory struggles early enough that he is doing well enough that we can find a good fit for him elsewhere. Most likely we'll put him in just 2x a week preschool come September to help him socially. They recommended a couple good ones, as well as having a couple friends whose children go to these rec preschools. I'll be looking into two come January. My heart is so gladdened by the fact that I get to keep my sweet firstborn home with me and that we will find a good fit for him for the fall, when he'll be almost four. Deep in my heart I knew the special ed classroom wasn't a good fit, when we did the eval there. I'm glad that through all the evaluation they told me what my heart knew. God has his hand in all of this. As we continue on this journey with him we will pray for direction and wisdom in finding a good fit for preschool that can nurture and strengthen him through this 'sensational journey'.

and because what's a monday without a read and be lifted up from a couple of my favorite blogs? enjoyingthesmallthings, omyfamily, &peaceitalltogether