joy filled moments

i love how they love books. curled up with mouse and friends.

 

i'm not sure how to put to words what i'm feeling...how do you sum up these fleeting wrap around your heart moments?

lucas running over and reaching up 'mama'... arms wrapped around me in a big hug...i never want to let go moment. he always seems to know when i need a hug the most. he lays his head tucked in deep on my shoulder, dimple smile reaches his eyes and calms my heart.

caleb's hand wrapped tight and his nervous face as we toured a preschool potential for the fall this morning. me trying to hold back tears and trying to be brave for my scared little boy, while on the inside i was just as scared. i don't want them to grow up moment. my maybe crazy idea moment of...i'll start my own preschool because sending him away from me even for just two mornings a week seems too hard for him and me. is he ready? am i ready? i didn't know it would be this hard. will it be a good fit? praying for Grace and Wisdom in this hard decision. 

caleb's empathy. a "don't be sad mom" moment. my wise little owl. sometimes our hearts hurt bad, but that is okay. change can be hard. but that's how we grow.

playing at the park with friends moment. warm,  fresh, air and sunshine and feeling grateful for these simple things i get to do with them because i'm home with them each day.

pre-nap cuddles and giggles. heart filled up moment. their love. their laughter. my joys.

having to leave for work yesterday while they stilled napped and coming home and they are in bed, knowing i only missed 3 hrs and am only gone three evenings a week now doesn't take away the ache of missing them moments. of hearing stories of what they did and how they were when i come home- but work problems have been solved thanks to an amazing sup. and feeling better about that moment.

curled up on the couch watching a movie with the one that i love moment.

sneaking into little boy rooms and holding them close under the moon moments...listening to their sweet breaths, smelling their sweet scent, aching with love and wonder. heart bursting love moments.

the afternoon spread out before us today with warm sun, a light heart knowing i'll be home for dinner and baths and bedtime tuck ins. a content heart moment.

feeling pulled in many directions lately, dr. apts, traveling, having to set up another appointment for my sweet c, (ear nose and throat specialist for his breathing at night and bio med for his nutrition/sensory/allergy/asthma/muscle tone/concerns.) and wishing time would slow...missing our home days a little....holding the moments of kisses and laughter, wiping tears, hugging sadness away, little hands tucked in mine warm and safe, giggles, stories, breakfast table conversation, pre nap laughter and cuddles, backyard barefoot happy play, cuddles on the bed and reading, brother love wrapped up in it all and a mama's heart who feels so much love for her precious sons.

I Cherish these little moments with my boys.

wishing you, a joyful...Tuesday.

"We have to love until it hurts. It is not enough to say, "I love." We must put that love into a living action. And how do we do that? By giving until it hurts"
~Mother Teresa

"Joy comes to those who in a sense forget themselves and become totally aware of the other."
~Mother Teresa

"Joy is prayer; joy is strength, joy is love." ~Mother Teresa

"Be faithful in little things. Smile at one another. We must live beautifully" ~Mother Teresa.


for me...there is so much encouragement in prayer; in his Word; through family, with friends, in my husband and children. I am grateful for my joy-filled blessings.