warm sunshine and happy smiles at the park
Tuesday Tidbits.
let's start with the hard first:
work. it's bringing me down! i gave the everyday m-f 4-7 thing a fair try but it is just too much for me at this time. I've felt so guilty about having drop down to three days a week but after much prayer and talking with D, we feel it is just best for our family at this time; mostly for me and my health. I have 8 more days and then I'll be down to just working Monday/Wednesday/Thursday. The reason I've felt bad about it is because my work is short staff right now so no one else will be taking over Tuesday and Friday. But the scheduler is amazing and made me feel totally guilt free by saying it isn't my job to find someone and i've given her plenty of notice! (starting way back in jan) I'm relieved. I miss being home in the evening with my boys a lot. While I don't mind working a little bit to help relieve financial stress, working everyday in the evening and not having that family time (even though we are all together everyday for lunch and all weekend as a family) has been hard on me. It has also been challenging working with the same child everyday, but we're finding our ground and his aggressive behaviors are subsiding. Yesterday he was waiting for me at the window when I arrived, this is why it breaks my heart as I feel like I'm leaving the family hanging; even if I am not quiting!! Well, with all of C's needs right now I just need to be able to focus on that along with enjoying our family time. It is what keeps me sane and really I haven't felt totally 100% good since I started working everyday!! So let my work countdown begin ;)
the boys are feeling better and we're back to our normal routine of OT twice a week in MH for C. While I love this, it is really hard for him to transition back to getting dressed in the morning and getting in the car, and driving to therapy. This morning he melted down for almost an hour, but was totally happy and fine after therapy and miss A said she never would have know he was sick and didn't have OT last week! Well, I'm happy to hear that, I know doing the home program is probably what kept him okay. I'm thankful he's back doing therapy again because he needs it! As do I. Having a 30 minute break I admit is nice. Lucas and I have time alone together and I love that. In giving so much time and energy to Caleb, I feel thankful when I can focus on Lucas with one on one time too.
Teething. Lucas is getting his 'fang' tooth. I can feel the tooth and that would explain the biting and why he was hysterical going down for a nap today. That never happens! Boy loves his sleep. He also hasn't been eating much so I'm glad I figured out what's bothering him.
The good moments....
playing at the park in the sunshine. pre-nap giggles between brothers. sleeping through the night last night cause no one woke mom or dad up in the middle of the night! wahoo. (caleb's sleep has been slightly off lately and lucas wasn't feeling good-so one or the other was waking up at night).
diffusing peace and calming essential oils is one of favorite ways to relax now. running early in the mornings has been so refreshing and peaceful. looking forward to a weekend escape with hubby this weekend in slo while nani and papa babysit. spring is around the corner!. looking forward to our oregon visitors (grandma and auntie katie) next month!!
right now the windows are open, birds are chirping, boys are snoozing, and i'm feeling hopeful. bible study is tonight and that leaves me feeling refreshed all week :) coming home after bible study and watching bachelor with d also gives me something to look forward to while I work!
Happy Tuesday!!
*oh and if you get a chance check out Finding Joy under my BLOG LOVE. I came across this blog yesterday and love it. The writer focuses her blog on FINDING JOY. Which is exactly we are talking about in bible study with our Philippians study. Finding Joy in the little, everyday things. She writes a lot about motherhood as well.
I also found the courage I needed to give my two weeks notice officially for work to 3x a week instead of 5x, after praying all morning (not to mention the past couple months) about if it is something God is really calling me to do... after reading this post on prayer at Peace it All Together. I always find encouragement in her writing!
Hope the rest of your day is filled with sunshine and smiles.
Glad to see that things are getting back to normal and that you are listening to your heart about what you need to do related to your work schedule. That balance is always difficult.
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