i get it now.

those growing up moments your mom told you "you'll get it one day"  and clearly you just didn't get them...."just you wait, you'll get it" once you become a mother...

 

I get it now mom.

 

Reflections from our day. I love the quiet that settles over our house in the afternoon. The chaos of lunch simmers into restful sleep. This is my time to reflect and rest. To do my devotionals, to write on the blog about our day, to nap :)

 

I had some major happy heart moments this am. So excuse me while I blubber on...

 

moments.

running under a warm cloak of rain clouds and smelling in sweet, spring flowers. waking up and running where the world is quiet; this is my favorite way to start my day (if i can motivate myself out of our cozy bed that is)

sheep grazed outside c's potential future preschool. kinda cool! i was feeling nervous about how caleb would react with children in the class; after our saturday open house here (only a couple kids saturday). No need to feel nervous. We were welcomed in, stayed over an hour, played, did some letter writing, and talked with the director. Caleb had an entire convo with her at the end (this doesn't happen with meeting people, or with people in general outside family and close friends) Watching your child emerge from their shell right in front of you, well, there's nothing like it. How can I explain? Watching a butterfly emerge from their cocoon, or a turtle from his shell? Ever read Leo the Late Bloomer? A childhood favorite of mine; as I was most def. a shy Leo. We had zero melt downs this morning. Another little leap in a mama's heart. The environment at this school is so peaceful and calm. It is a safe place. I could tell how safe Caleb felt in the way he played despite there being other children there and how he interacted with a new person; talking to her despite only having just met her saturday. While Lucas easily makes friends and knows no strangers, that comes harder for Caleb. I love that Lucas makes Caleb feel safe and that together the boys create a beautiful balance.  

playing at the park

following our preschool visit we played at the park. the boys climbed and went down slides and ate snacks with friends. I had yet another heart burst moment as I watched Caleb climb up a structure he had never been on before; as I watched him run away from me to go climb up a slide with his friends, talking to them along the way. These are little moments we celebrate. They are big in our book. Lucas wandered around, found mud, found dirt, followed friends, tried to climb up everything. And I watched my boys and felt happy for the simpleness and contentedness that comes in just a morning play date at the park. The sun was shinning and the birds were chirping.

Three 3 year old friends, all boys, chatting in only the language of 3 year old boy age. Sliding slides and running up stairs.

 

I'm thankful for a calm morning despite it being filled with activities. I'm thankful that typical melt down triggers didn't happen this morning. Getting dressed, going in the car, leaving a new place, going home....Caleb kept calm and was just a happy little boy. These are days I remember when we are in the midst of harder ones. Where every transition brings on a melt down and he isn't able to engage in play at the park with other children or in a setting away from home. These are the moments I hold on to because i know there's a little butterfly bursting to come out and fly all of the time. And in those harder moments we hold him and love him just the same.

morning serenade

 

my other favorite morning moments....

picnic lunch in our backyard. pre nap giggles and a game of peek-a-boo. Lucas' easy laugh and cheerful smile. Caleb's tender touch with Lucas. Nap time stories. A muddy post park Lucas. Soaking up each moment with my boys. Watching them, loving them, and bottling up their precious-ness. Feeling thankful I am their mama.

 

Happy Tuesday.